which story are you referring to? like, my life story?

well, i used to be really, really sad….to the point of self mutilation and other bad thoughts. the only person who kept me here was my dance instructor, elizabeth. after almost 6 years of training, she left. my world collapsed. i lost all inspiration and let myself give up on the things i wanted to do because i no longer had her directly supporting me even  though we still kept in touch. i didn’t make it into college for my desired major because i didn’t have her training my final years of high school. i’m realizing now how much i depended on her for making me happy and reaching for the stars. i felt nearly invincible around her. and the best part was how proud she was of me for coming out of my shell and working so hard to do my absolute best. i received news recently that she will be announcing her return to the studio i grew so attached to with her and i want nothing more than to drop everything i’m doing so that i can feel what i did 4 years ago. so, right now, i’m in a long lasting rut and i can’t find my wat out. i don’t know what i want from school or life and i feel like i’m giving up again. i feel like i’m in almost the same exact spot that i was in 7th grade when i almost took my life. i need out. i need a break. i need to dance. i want to feel as alive as i did back then.

i hope that’s kind of what you were looking for.

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